What Is Time With You?
36”x60”
I had the idea for this painting after a week of my son being earth side. A combination of the things that made up between October 17 through November. A transformation of my body, taking things slow at home, my arms holding my babe to continue growth, slow walks in the backyard introducing Elswick to the world and his home, and a martini to celebrate it all. The process of labor to the first few weeks of being his mom was the most transitional, empowering, wonderful time of my life. I’ve never felt a high quite like labor and the first bit of my babies life. Crowded with emotions good and scary. Learning that the things I was scared of before had no place and realizing that my soul would change and different things would fill those scary voids that I had no idea about. Allowing for slowness. Allowing myself to be me but also giving myself grace to change as my body and soul are altering after a big transition being in labor I was in a time vortex and that lingered for awhile after he came into the world. Sunrise and sunsets were interchangeable. We both cried happy tears when my milk came in. My body has never felt stronger and weaker at the same time. My arms longed for you seconds after I put you down. Time made no sense but you make all the sense in the world. A different type of unravelling of myself. Letting myself being undone and being enveloped by my new life and death of my own in all the best ways.